Just a bit busy cleaning, working, playing (Wow again), seeing people and some photography. I actually did my 2nd homework w/ the egg and I did get what my teacher wanted except for the "rimming back light" but otherwise, its' all good. I haven't posted the shots - I guess imagine the same eggs with a nice white background, more 3d-radiosity looking smooth shadows. Pretty neat.
My next homework is hell.. it's a "ok, let's see what you have learned." I have to get two photos of the followign:
1. a car
2. a house
3. an animal
4. a person
5. a tree
I honestly don't fear the car, nor house. An animal- well anoying. A person.. hmm a bit hard.. A tree, OH MY GOD. .. a tree... that one I fear the most.
Onto other things, I am pretty darn happy lately. As in very happy, very comfy and very excited. I am working on something pretty cool...
So the only thing that I want to work with myself currently is in that issue of "letting go" of people. I definitively have an issue of letting go of people that are - for whatever the reason - not that interested to continue in touch- active or passive in doing so. I just have to accept that's the way it is. Accept that the standards for what a "friend is" is truly low on average...
What triggered this? Contacting an ex... and a recent ex coworker... This is all making me think about why this bugs me so much... rejection is certainly one part but when you look at it and just say "oh, it's the rejection" there's much much more to it than just a simplistic cursory view. I don't think there's a lot of major things... just some other factors... so... at the very end, I am responsible for these feelings (or at the very least, they are my kids) so .. I will take care of this.
I will meditate about this while I hang around Darkshire I guess... (Wow reference).