Raw Consciousness

MY LIFE - no pain, no gain....

A few things have happened lately that are emotionally painful. I am handling them overall fine as far as not thinking about me being worthless or anything like that, though I have lost some sleep and my stomach is not quite right. I feel this "ominous weight" in my body- kind of weird. A heaviness. Sometimes valuable lessons have to set in through pain it seems, otherwise we don't take them seriously - or so I am beginning to think.

New lesson- if you are about to say something critical to someone that involves human relations (particularly the one you are involved in with them and also ideally), make sure you are cool, you know what you are saying, you have thought it through and you are not (too) resentfull/mad. Consider yourself doing that under those conditions a bit like driving under influence. It won't do you good.

MY LIFE - a thing I think I learned today and a quote...

Let's start with the quote. It's easier:

"I feel like a dog chasing his own tail" - someone undecided about which camera to buy between three models, in a seemingly touch-of-OCD way. I think this quote captures an aspect of the feeling of the indecision OCD can bring.

And now what I think I learned today: I may worship the truth, so I don't want to lie in the name of portraying things as nice and "everyone gets along" if it's going to make a lie. But just because I want to say the truth doesn't mean I can't try to ease the way in which the truth is delivered or prepare and help with the consequences it may bring- the truth by itself can be very often- a very nasty thing on its own. Saying it like that can be like a shot being fired. I think there's a better way to share it without having to fire that shot- at least in a lot of cases.

DIGITAL PHOTOGRAPHY - Lx3 Jan/Feb 2009

Some stuff I did this year with the LX3. Some tonight even.